All my life my fierceness came out in a type of survival mode that can only be akin to an electric fence. It worked for me until it didn't, and the moment it stoped working was when Vajrayogini chose me.
The shield and sword I still carry looks very different than what they used to - no longer do they have blood dripping off them with the echo of saddness. Now, they shine and the red is a fresh coat of paint in Her banner color with a Dakini's whisper on the wind.
Before, too, I would wander with my armour so sure that behind every tree in the forest yielded a darkness I must fight against. Now, though, I wander with my armour so sure that behind every tree in the forest is a place I can find and spread healing. The Sambogakaya is a place of safety because I have become that safe place for myself and all who I encounter there.
There is no need any longer for my boundaries to be electric fences, rather they are lined with red roses that reflect my fierce self-compassion Vajrayogini gave me back. Dakini wanders with me too, and I choose Them to be my fellow Shieldmaidens as I fiercely wander throughout the kayas.