People think you're crazy when you tell them you've thrown out your back with a smile and a laugh, that you did it moving your hips in a way that you haven't done in years and that no, you don't regret what you've done to yourself.
As an ever-evolving yoga teacher, I know not to push myself into poses or in general, but I sure did it in our first SBT Dakini Series II - Yeshe Tsogyal. AND I AM SO HAPPY THAT I DID!
I felt something during that class ... be it the all female group, maybe it was me finally getting out of my own way, and part of me would like to believe Yeshe Tsogyal "herself" was floating around with all of us while we were dancing too. I imagined a few times in class that what we were doing was what Yeshe Tsogyal did herself on the warm summer days outside her meditation cave. The movements were healing in an embodying way I had never felt before and pain or not, I'm grateful to have the reminder of what I accomplished in class with my heart teacher, Khandro-la. I still feel like roaring two days later just like I did during class!
And so, as I walk crookedly and slowly out in the world, I guess I could be upset, or regretful, or even allow myself to project my pain and embarrassment on others, but those ways to deal with this obscuration didn't even cross my mind - I'm just grateful that I can move, that I did *literally* let myself "let 'er snap", and that I have four more weeks left because if this first week was this amazing -- I'm willing to keep experiencing it all over and over!