Since that initial experience - probably three sessions ago. I feel that I willingly and consciously enter the charnel ground, in a dance-like and confident way. I have periods of intense dreams where I feel like I am being taught and also working in some way. 

During one of these periods I woke very early in the morning with such a strong sense that the fabric of the/my world was as thin as tissue paper, it was all a sort of dream, an apparition - I felt very calm and focused and as light as a feather. Thinking about this later I felt a lot of compassion towards everyone. All of us wandering in our projections. I felt so sad and compassionate about it. 

Another thing is that the Tibetan Yoga energy practices have helped me focus at many levels. If I feel that I’m disconnected and in my head and not sensitive to the forces in my world, I do a sort of scan of my ‘energetic body’. Straight away I feel re-connected to an awareness that aids me.

So thank you Choying for bringing us all together. I was reluctant to tell this because it’s complicated and messy and maybe confronting for others. But now I have - I feel a sort of relief.

Thank you everyone.