Retreat

I am a fortunate human. Alongside several of my fellow vajra siblings, I received Vajrayogini empowerment in the fall of 2021. So, during this weekend’s empowerment, I was keenly aware of how much this “vessel” for initiation was different from the one who received that first empowerment. It felt li

Coming to the end of our 3-month householder retreat, I see that self-grasping is the opening and Troma Nakmo has opened the door. Standing at the door, it feels heavy, dark, and forceful, powerful. Opening the door and walking into the room, I see it’s not 'me', it’s Troma Nakmo, and it’s not a r

I've been thinking about this concept of feeling "overwhelmed" as part of the Dakini's Whisper experience. It doesn't exactly describe my own personal experience but another word occurs to me which does, and maybe others might relate - overstimulated - though even the word "over" doesn't exactly fit

Ahh, washed ashore on the other side of our Summer Retreat. This deeply transformative experience continues to ripple through my being, with effects that began several days prior to entering retreat. Putting my experience into words can be so challenging; human language is clumsy and somewhat inadeq

Yesterday I watched the DW YouTube video, The Mystical Flavor of the Ear-Whispered Lineage and Troma Nakmo. In describing the mystical aspect of Tsongkhapa, Khandro-la says something like, "he used language (rational thought) to cut through language....to go to the edge and then drop it!" (I apologi

During the May-2022 retreat, anything that could go wrong has gone wrong for me: physical, financial, with people, appliances and even pets. The resistance is strong, and I have no choice, but to bring out a strong determination. Isn’t that the same thing as people working out in the gyms? Resistant