Often in KL’s guided meditations, we connect with this view of emptiness. But we don’t stay there, ever. I hear her saying now, in my head, “is something stirring in you? What is it?” I find myself curious, fascinated actually, with this question, pondering it.
When I can recognize emptiness, my felt sense is often like Buddha Dakini - spacious, vast, open without reference point. I am aware of a feeling of comfort, resting in Dharmakaya. Ahhhhhhh….this is for me. It feels good. Then, Khandro-la is right, something stirs. What is it? What draws me back into this world of conceptuality, conditioning, habitual patterns, duality…. suffering.
Honestly, I don’t yet know what is stirring, or why. I just know the stirring is unavoidable. When I sit with it, I taste a longing for the complete release of self-cherishing, self-grasping, overwhelming compassion. I feel the ancient lineage masters touching me from behind with heads nodding, “yes, yes, move, go.” I feel a pouring of sweet nectar through the center of my heart, exquisite joy, and no doubt.
“The wind stirs, the fire blazes” and I see the “city of joy” ahead…