Yesterday I watched the DW YouTube video, The Mystical Flavor of the Ear-Whispered Lineage and Troma Nakmo. In describing the mystical aspect of Tsongkhapa, Khandro-la says something like, "he used language (rational thought) to cut through language....to go to the edge and then drop it!" (I apologize for any misrepresentation of KL's beautiful teaching, by the way.) The deeper I go into dakini teachings and practices, the more deeply ingrained, pervasive habitual patterns are uncovered. Some are qualities that have, and still do, serve me well you could say. Mystical Tsongkhapa has got me thinking about discipline, a quality I have had the fortune to have but that also can turn around and bite in the 'you know what!' Working with my mind, dakinis have been dancing and playing there in the midst of this quality of discipline. And hearing about Tsongkhapa taking this rational, logical quality of thinking and using it to cut through the very obstacle that it can be has inspired me to do the same. Thus, I have a new self-inquiry question for this Troma Nakmo Retreat - How can I use discipline to take me to the edge, then drop it? Jump! Leap! Maybe Troma Nakmo, this wrathful aspect of Machik will push me there, and then over!
I'm wondering if others are discovering things about yourself that might take you to the edge of what we are capable of with a willingness to then, JUMP!?!